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Today I fed some ducks at your funeral.
It was a cold day, they looked hungry.
You might have appreciated my gesture. You used to think well of me.
I don't like ducks much, but needed to get rid of the cake somehow.
The ducks definitely liked it. The cake was chocolate, your
favourite. I dislike chocolate. You could have bought Lemon cake, I
like that, but you didn't.
You came to my flat carrying the box
from the confectioner's. It's traditional to bring something nice to
eat when you want to share good news, that's what you said.
You'd applied for and got a new job, it
hadn't come up in conversation before so I was surprised.
'It's what I've always longed for. A
job with such a prestigious company. I'll have my own assistants and
I'll be in charge of an entire department.'
I got up to make coffee. I enjoy
drinking coffee and it calms my nerves.
'I had the second interview week before
last, they were very positive and I was pretty sure the job was mine.
I had to wait the whole week but the letter came yesterday.'
I hunted for the Kenyan beans to make
your coffee; I prefer Peruvian but this was your special day.
'You know I really didn't think they
were impressed by me at the first interview. I was very nervous and I
think I chose the wrong blouse, I wore that blue one that you said
went so well with my eyes, anyway the top button came undone and I
didn't even notice until later. I was sure that Kevin had noticed. I
was so embarrassed and I thought he'd write me off as cheap, but he
said later how he liked a feminine touch around the place.'
'Later?'
'Uhuh. I was so flushed after the
interview that the Personnel department secretary thought I looked
ill. She gave me some water and I sat in the outer office. Then Mr
Malone, Kevin that is, came out. He saw me and he was so kind. He
took me out to lunch he said
"Because I expect you haven't eaten today
due to butterflies." Wasn't that observant of him?'
I debated over scalding the milk or
using cream from the fridge for your coffee, I opted for the milk.
Did I want you to burn your mouth? I don't know.
'Are you listening to me Paul, you
haven't said a word ?'
I'm fairly sure I'd said something, but
you probably didn't hear me.
'You are exasperating, you know that;
it's one reason I applied for this job. I think we need a break.You
don't really appreciate me Paul; I only realised because Kevin is so
considerate and it's such a contrast.
'This cake is delicious, it's Black
Forest Gateau you know. I thought you liked cherries. Hurry up with
that coffee or I'll eat your share too.'
Digging in the cupboard I found the
Demerara lumps and put them in a bowl on the tray with the cups and
the coffee pot. I brought it over to the lounge and set the tray on
the table. You'd started picking at the cake already and your fingers
were sticky so you were licking them. I fetched plates and the bread
knife; I don't have a cake slice.
'Cut some for yourself Paul, you'll
make me feel greedy otherwise.'
You smiled as I handed you a plate with
a large piece on it. I went back to the kitchen for the hot milk. As
I sat down across from you you said.
'So I'm moving to London next week.'
I spilled coffee down my trousers.
'Don't look like that. You weren't
listening were you? I have this new job with more money and more
responsibility. It's good for me.'
You pushed cake into your mouth and
smiled at the same time.
'It'll be good for us.' you said,
spraying crumbs.'We need space to decide if our romance is still
working.'
I poured the milk. You had more cake in
your mouth and you were looking at me like I was a small boy. I
handed you the cup and saucer and you took a gulp of coffee.
'Gaachh ! Too hot s' burning my mouth.'
I hurried into the kitchen and came
back with a glass of iced water. You grabbed it and drank and then
you coughed and flapped your free hand about.
'You did that on purpose! You're
horrible, you really are. I don't know if I love you at all
anymore.'
Tears appeared in your eyes, but whether you were sad or trying not to cough I don't know. I went to fetch tissues from the bathroom as you bit into another piece of cake.
Tears appeared in your eyes, but whether you were sad or trying not to cough I don't know. I went to fetch tissues from the bathroom as you bit into another piece of cake.
When I came back you were sat on the
couch staring pop-eyed at the kitchen and you were making funny
gasping noises. I could see you were choking on something so I handed
you the glass of water. You raised it to your mouth and still
retching and spluttering you drank some. Then your face turned blue
and you dropped the glass and the plate of cake. You started pawing
at your throat and you looked at me. I think you were looking
longingly, but perhaps not. There were a few judders and gasps and
then you were quiet.
The Coroner's verdict was 'Accidental
Death'. Apparently there'd been a cherry stone in the cake and that
had jammed in your windpipe. It took me days to clean up the coffee
stains. This morning I saw cake crumbs in the dustpan, that's when I
thought of the ducks and how happy they would be.
2 comments:
How sad! Though the chick clearly deserved it, the ducks are maybe the only nice folks in the story :D
Rebecca at The Ninja Librarian , dropping in from Chuck's site.
Cool! I like the twist that you added (and I'm glad you liked the line!). Thanks for letting me know about your post!
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